What a weird way to end the year. But I am not surprised. If things seem to be going along fairly smoothly, then something is going to happen to jack it up. That is not me being a pessimist. It is me being a realist.
The past couple weeks have been way busier than I thought they would be. Partly because they were short work weeks. We had three day work weeks back to back so I had to cram 5 days into 3. In the mental health field that isn't a good thing. I don't like not being able to take as long as I need to with clients. They have a tough time at the holidays and I have discovered that a population that is mostly stable the rest of the year does a lot of unravelling during the holidays. I can understand it though. I am moodier myself. I started out with great cheer and it had slowly fizzled.
I felt morose the rest of the day, didn't sleep much that night, and was still chewing on it the next morning. Over the years I have become so in tune with my inner spirit that I can tell when I am not centered, or balanced. When I get off balance, it affects my positive energy and also those around me. I went to work still chewing on it. I do that. Chew on things that are bothering me until a) I figure out a solution or understanding of the issue, or b) let it go. I wasn't to the letting go stage, and after a bit I realized it is ok for my daughter and I to have different opinions. No matter what she said about me, I know how I feel and act and mostly am ok with it. SO I began to understand where we were both coming from, on an emotional level, and finally I was able to spit it out and feel I had at least resolved my side of the issues. It was a good thing I did too because something came up at work and required a calm spirit from me to deal with, and the outcome was good, but the day before it could have been a fiasco.
I firmly believe the people around us pick up on the aura we exude, the mood we are in, the turmoil we feel, and it affects how others react to us. I have always had an ability to calm down people who were in turmoil, mostly because I stay present in the moment and speak to them from a calm spiritual state. My family calls me the rock for this reason, and that describes it as well as any word does.
So last night we celebrated Jack's 6th birthday. My daughter was there. For a while we just spoke politely to each other and kept it civil. There came a moment when we were talking in the middle of the kitchen, and suddenly she grabbed me in a hug, and apologized and told me she loved me. And I was telling her the same thing at the same time.
Life is always good, even when it isn't, because I am learning and growing. But at times life is so much better than good. When you have hope during times of turmoil, you can make it to times of centered being....
Happy New Year to you all, and may you have a year of centered peace and happiness...